May 20, 2012
I should slap myself for pouring my frustrations on my friends. It is selfish and unfair. I should probably find a better channel to do so and be more conscious about it. I hate the feeling of regret after doing something wrong.
May all my frustrations disappear with the groans of heavy lifting

I should slap myself for pouring my frustrations on my friends. It is selfish and unfair. I should probably find a better channel to do so and be more conscious about it. I hate the feeling of regret after doing something wrong.

May all my frustrations disappear with the groans of heavy lifting

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May 20, 2012
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Hot Chelle Rae - Bleed

I bleed my heart out on this paper for you.
So you can see what I can’t say.
I’m dying here.
‘Cause I can’t say what I want to.
I bleed my heart out just for you.
 Hot Chelle Rae

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May 6, 2012
First race of a non-running season

As usual, I cannot suppress those athlete instinct to compete again even though I stopped distance running. I have been doing general conditioning for the past few months, merely doing maintenance work to my fitness, waiting, waiting for a new goal interesting enough to spur me onto some serious training schedule. Today I ran my first race of the year, the 5km cross country. It was a spontaneous decision, without any specific training, or any diet planning beforehand. 

At the start line, I was up against serious runners who probably anticipated this day for eons. I see the fire in some of their eyes, they really wanted this badly and I looked at myself, I don’t deserve to be here. I know how it feels to put in so much time, sweat and blood into racking up the mileage and all these are what you fight for at the start line. I shrugged my shoulders, on my mark, and got off to a medium start. As usual, hormone raged boys and inexperienced runners start at an incredible pace. Before I knew it, I was at least 50 places behind the first. I looked at my watch, smirked and thought to myself, 18 more minutes of pain to go.

I picked up after the first kilometre, chasing up the front pack until I caught a glimpse of them. I eased myself into the second pack of runner for another two kilometres. My race plan was surprising sound given that I didn’t have one. I maintained at this pace, stride by stride, until the 14th minute when everything started to roll downhill.

With slightly more than a kilometre to go, I couldn’t feel my fingers because they were already numb to the chill. My toes started cramping and my stomach started to contract harder. I resisted all of them by focusing on my breathing and stride. I knew the end was near and I started to increase my pace despite the pain, breaking away from the pack of runners, I was heading for a decent timing and a 6th to 7th placing. 

Closing to the finishing line, I slowed down by a considerable amount, and 6 runners got by me. I counted every single one of them down. My body wasn’t listening to my mind anymore. I crossed the finishing line and deposited remnants of my breakfast on the roots of the tree, 12th place 19min flat. The amount of training done is shown by how strong one finishes, and my lack of endurance and discipline at the last end just showed my lack of conditioning specifically for running. I am more than a minute off my best but since I didn’t consider myself a runner anymore, it didn’t hit me too hard. But one things for sure, I hate losing.

Overall it wasn’t a good result but I am satisfied with my performance given the amount of training I put into running - just 2 times a week. I am still able to maintain a sub 4min/km pace like I used to do comfortably for 10km, albeit the lack of endurance and fitness for a strong finish.

April 24, 2012
re-trace:

This applies to reading my notes. ):

re-trace:

This applies to reading my notes. ):

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April 22, 2012
Morning outburst

I closed my saturday night feeling out of sorts, partly because I thought I lacked discipline throughout the day or it could be hormonal since I didn’t exercise.

I woke up energised, feeling fresh with that saturday feeling still rumbling in me. I decided to go for a hard sprint intervals session today to let out all the ‘frustration’. Indeed, I managed to finish 12 x 70s with 60s rest between intervals. Even though I wasn’t at the level I used to be, I felt that I was picking up again and I could build on this hard session to get back to my previous form. I struggled through the last leg of every set, reminding myself to relax, keep a good posture, let those springy hamstrings propel. I wasn’t so conscious about my breathing rhythm and kept it natural. During the session, I remembered the training sessions I had with NJ and NUS, the anonymous voices telling me not to give in to the pain as I zipped through each set, entirely focused on keeping the pace. It gave me the extra kick or else I wouldn’t be able to finish 12 devastating sets.

As I was about to head to the gym to meet a friend after a run, I noticed my towel went missing. I searched the changing rooms and the surroundings and even alerted the campus security. In the end this chinese bloke came up to me with my seemingly familiar towel in his grasp. The first thing he told me was he used it to wipe his seat and the first phrase that came out of my mouth was ‘what the fuck?’. I chided him for about 1 minute in a ‘no holds bar’ fashion and I can imagine how their jaws dropped. I treated him like a subordinate in the army and lashed at him.

I know it was mean to use him to vent my frustration but this should be the kind of reaction I should show or people will think I am soft and easy to bully. People like him ought to realise that that is the price to pay for taking chances.

April 20, 2012
This is what I need to remind myself every day…

This is what I need to remind myself every day…

(Source: compass00)

April 19, 2012
Are You Eating The Right Kind Of Food?

Nowadays, I see young people like me chowing down their so beloved High Fructose Corn Syrup (HFCS), Alcohol, Trans Fat and it saddens me that they are wrecking their bodies with such excessive consumption. And then they turn around and whine in frustration, blaming everything they can but themselves, when they have trouble with school an other areas of life, not knowing that they could be better if they ate better. True? No?

Carbohydrates have proven to be a superior form of fuel to any other, it brings your physical prowess to the top but only an athlete will have such needs. An active human or student, with no wish to peak their physical performance should not make carbohydrates a huge part of their diet. So firstly ask yourself if a large part of your diet is the calorie dense but nutrient empty grains/flour. If it is then you are merely storing up energy for your physical needs and consuming far too little nutritious compounds that can aid your development in other areas.

Lets have a look at protein. Many people avoid eating more protein, associating it gaining mass and hence gaining weight. The truth is you will only gain weight if you are exceeding your daily calorie count by a significant amount, not by consuming protein per se. Many people under consume protein, avoid it at the chance the have, associate it have heart disease with all the fats that come with. The fact is that you can consume up to 150g of protein a day without any harmful effects. That equates up to 20 eggs, or 5 whole chicken breast. I have to put it straight that there are currently ZERO conclusive studies to show the correlation between heart disease and dietary animal fat. Have I just broken your heart? Continue to eschew protein and you will see how cognitively undeveloped you will be, how your muscles will waste away, how your mood swings like crazy and how you start to be inferior to the people who do not.

Manipulating fats are for people who seek enhancement in their nutrition and will not be discussed. Eat enough protein and the fat that comes along with it will be sufficient for the laymen.

April 17, 2012
The Importance of Living Alone

I cannot emphasise more the importance of truly being independent.

Exploring new places, meeting new people, immersing in a different culture, all these are the attractive features of an overseas education but they cannot beat the gaining of independence and autonomy. You will realise that there are many things you took for granted; there is always a Daddy or Mummy filling that small void in your life and then suddenly they are gone and everything seems to be out of place.

There is a tendency for you to find a substitute for reliance and we seek that through our friends. We naturally become closer because we rely on each other for emotional and physical needs. The caveat is that it they will drift away from your life one day, just like your many hundreds of facebook friends who were once close to you.

Standing on your own feet is what makes this challenge thoroughly exciting and at the end you will realise how much you have grown up, how sensible and considerate you have become.

It makes you an adult, capable of taking care of your loved ones and yourself.

April 16, 2012

My Draft portfolio for keep sake


Effective communication with patients, team members, colleagues and the community

The first major hurdle of communication was the oral presentation. I chose the topic that was most foreign to me and it was anatomical pathology. This serves as an opportunity for me to do a formal research on this discipline. As i am required to present on various aspects of discipline, I felt the need to be very clear and knowledgeable on the topic. The first mistake I made was that I did not do a proper rehearsal for the presentation even though I jotted down points pertaining to the slides. This resulted in me stumbling at the first part of the presentation as I struggle to cope with my mind blanking out. However, as I spoke through the first slide, I slowly regained my confidence to wrap it up with a decent level of appraisal. A particular weakness of my presentation is that my images were inadequate in bringing out the effect of simplicity and meaning at the same time. My peers commented that the images were “insufficient” in explaining what anatomical pathologists do.

Personally, I feel that oral presentation is a confidence game and there are two main factors that most affected my confidence level. The first is having the most knowledge about the topic presented in the room. It certainly helped as I was able to relate to the audience and able to deliver information across continuously. The second is the response of the audience, specifically at instances where they started giggling when I injected some humour into my content. It gave me a sense of control and confidence in the presentation. This ungraded exercise is extremely useful as I do not have the fear of being marked down officially, meaning I could go out there, be myself, liberally make mistakes and learn from them. For subsequent presentations, my aim is to explore the use of images purposefully without compromising on content. This can be achieved by having a friend to critique my work before the actual presentation.


The next significant event involving communication is the process of completing my individual assignment on “Heroes of medical science”. It is a challenging process to try to translate medical knowledge into a simple form of language understood by the layman. I had to use minimal medical knowledge in my explanations to keep it simple yet fulfil the criteria of my assignment, which is to write about a particular field of medical science. To solve this problem, I allowed my peers from other faculties to read my draft assignment and they told me I needed to include definitions for certain terms in my assignment which will enhance their understanding of the report. Part of the medical school curriculum is to train us to be competent academic writers and I felt that my words carried more weight when I did my citations in a professional manner: APA referencing style. By citing my work properly, it provided evidence which improved the credibility of my work and avoid the cardinal sin of writing that is plagiarism. I aim to achieve better continuities between paragraphs in the assignments ahead by ensuring that the concluding sentence and topic sentence between paragraphs link sufficiently well.

Self‐directed learning and critical evaluation skills

The learning style in university is vastly different from that of high school. I came from an education system that “spoon fed” students with a lot of information. As a result, we had very detailed lecture notes – the important parts were bolded, information was clearly organised in tables, bullet forms, acronyms, mnemonics, and examination requirements were answered systematically. We were also taught beyond the syllabus and hence, lecture notes were capable of handling any surprises from examinations. This allowed me to have a very strong foundation in my basic sciences. It was enriching but I felt like a drone, in the way that I download information from my lecture notes mindlessly and upload them on the examination script. For lectures in the medicine program, I was taken aback when I first saw the lecture notes – they were exactly the same as the Powerpoint slides shown! The content was also relatively disorganised with the lecturers spraying random bits of information about the lecture topic. From that moment, I knew my method of learning had to change.

My learning has since expanded beyond the borders of the lecture notes. The academic lectures left me riddled with questions and set me in panic. Fortunately, I learnt to manage this by referring to a copy of the “Oxford Medical Dictionary” whenever I encounter jargons that I cannot comprehend. Another useful resource is the glossary of words used in pathology that was provided to us at the very first pathology lecture. I noticed the terms used in medicine are intricately linked to Greek and Latin - both languages are used in tandem to form majority of the terms. Using this relationship, I found online resources that allowed me to appreciate the meaning of terms like “brachiocephalic” which means a blood vessel related to the head and arm as “brachium” means “arm” in Latin while “kephale” means “head” in Greek. I feel that it is a good method of learning to start with definitions and meaning before proceeding to understand cause-effect flow charts. These external resources provided me with the understanding to make sense of what is being taught.

Evaluation and analysis seemed like a daunting task but the difficulty is mediated by the aid of appropriate resources. I am expected to demonstrate critical thinking not only in terms of evaluating actual content in my assignment but also the credibility of my references. By using resources such as Scopus and Web of Science, I am able to find peer reviewed journals that offer a substantial amount of credibility. They also provide me with links to other articles that cited my particular article I chosen. It saved me a lot of time trying to find different articles that reinforce the same point I was trying to make. Although such resources simplified the meaning of evaluation and analysis, I still feel the need to work on these capabilities. It is even more important for subsequent assignments as they form the bulk of the requirements.

April 13, 2012
The Need to Master the Basic Skill

I need to sharpen my kitchen skill, so that I can be efficient in preparing my meals and thus, more time for study and exercise!

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